Overthinking Spirals

How do I explain the way my brain works?

The highs and lows, the changing tides 

Ugly thoughts that haunt the spaces

The complications of my mind

How do I even try to justify 

The absurdity of the things I worry about 

The picture of calmness is starting to break 

With every urge to scream, necessity to shout 

I worry about missing assignments deadlines 

Which I myself procrastinated on 

About people who genuinely love me 

And about the people who are long gone 

I overthink about ice cream flavours 

About each action and possible outcome 

I overthink about overthinking 

About who I am, who I want to become

Overthinking comes naturally to me 

In ways that happiness and anger just don’t

So, I will make another wretched list

I say I’ll follow it, but I know I won’t 

Overthinking is my constant 

Like I’m in love with the knife slashing my skin 

Each noise outside, each sound around

Become the echoes of overthinking within

-Aanya Bhaduri